The Schoolyard

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We were in the schoolyard, the girl and I,    

whose name and face I don’t remember.

 

We played during lunchtime, throwing 

a softball made of old socks at each other’s faces. 

 

The ball delighted us with every touch, with every hit, 

and we whirled ‘round and ‘round, hungry for each other’s faces.

 

Light as dust on a flea’s wings, 

we sauntered all around the yard.

 

Later, in seventh grade, we were playing,

I went to the edge of the schoolyard.

 

You raised your hand to throw the ball, but were 

too afraid to do so. I waved goodbye, and 

 

you stood mute, with tears welling up in your eyes. 

That was the last time I saw you. 

 

The years have plunged, and the heart has plunged 

into an empty, windswept place, without the sun, 

 

or the moon, or the stars, or the softball. Only 

a peculiar light of thought spins in the darkness.  

 

From the blurry freaks of cold memories, 

all I can remember is the softball on your hand. 

 

Girl, whose name and face I don’t remember, 

throw that softball at my face once again. 

 

The house is empty, the couch is old, the people 

I once loved are all gone. The clock has stopped. 

 

I am aware of nothing but my own loneliness.

Throw that softball at my face, and break 

 

this stillness of my life with a soft touch.  

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Life Out of Rubble

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A dusty wind raps the broken windows.

 

From the ruins of this ancient city

Brothel houses like rubble rise.

 

Frayed little whores walk

In and out of the decrepit houses,

Muttering hatred under their breath.

 

Lewd love, polluted joys, happy screams

Fill the dark streets, where life once again,

Erects his head, undisturbed by the damage,

Or the deathly dirge.

 

Bedazzled through and through

By seeing a woman, barefoot, and

Wearing a slip that does not cover her thighs,

Life makes haste.

 

She lies face up on the bed,

Wearing only her red-flowered panties,

While he comes up to her,

Whispers warm words into her ear,

And takes her into his frail arms,

Riding like a defeated knight

On the top of her, splashing

In the onion soup of her filly’s thighs.

 

He goes to the dirty relics of teashops,

And wipes the lambent grogginess

From his face with unsold books of verse.

Placing a cup of sweet tea in his shaky hand,

He seduces his mind to joy,

 

And his heart to delight.

 

While death moans and rumbles,

Warning him the best he could,

Yet shuddering with the ache

Of life’s constant growing,

Knowing this cycle

Could go on and on

Forever.

 

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Earthquake 2015

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This house that once sheltered my life crumbles.

Broken down, my soul in tatters, screech—

Like my shattered dreams of the past, billowing

In the dusty, wrinkled brownness of the land.

 

These walls that once sheltered me in solitude,

Now lie fallen down in heaps.

Inside them I had lived a life

At the grasp of lonely youth,

Away from the jelly-fish-like world,

Finding happiness more profound

Than wandering over the mountains.

 

Quick like the evening wind, you arrived

With a shrill one-note wail

Of an ancient song of tectonics,

Echoing through the sleepy Saturday afternoon,

And turned my life into rubble—just like that.

 

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